Let go.
Drop everything and just run away.
Not forever.
Maybe just for a day.
Let Go.
Take a break.
Take a breath.
Sit in the grass.
Sit in the sand.
Stand in the rain.
Breathe.
Everythings fine.
Stop worrying.
Just be.
Let Go.
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Life is Fragile.
I've been learning that life is precious.
I've been learning that no matter how hard things get, it will get better.
I've been learning that even though you may seem at a loss,
Even though you may seem like nothing will change.
It will.
I've learned that life is hard,
Nothing about it will ever be easy.
It's like learning to read, write, spell, throw a baseball, ride a bike.
It takes practice.
It will never go the way you planned.
It's not easy.
I've learned that to take a life is one of the worst tragedies in the world.
I've learned that to take your own life....
Is the worst way to leave.
The scariest way to leave.
But it is never the answer.
No matter how hard things seem,
No matter how hurt you may feel.
No matter how alone you may feel.
Someone will miss you.
Lots of people will miss you.
RIP Cole Bougie. My prayers go out to you and your family and friends.
I've been learning that no matter how hard things get, it will get better.
I've been learning that even though you may seem at a loss,
Even though you may seem like nothing will change.
It will.
I've learned that life is hard,
Nothing about it will ever be easy.
It's like learning to read, write, spell, throw a baseball, ride a bike.
It takes practice.
It will never go the way you planned.
It's not easy.
I've learned that to take a life is one of the worst tragedies in the world.
I've learned that to take your own life....
Is the worst way to leave.
The scariest way to leave.
But it is never the answer.
No matter how hard things seem,
No matter how hurt you may feel.
No matter how alone you may feel.
Someone will miss you.
Lots of people will miss you.
RIP Cole Bougie. My prayers go out to you and your family and friends.
Monday, February 20, 2012
There will be light.
There is always a light at the end of a tunnel.
There is always another day.
There is always something bigger going on than what you're feeling.
Though the world may seem small.
And your heart may be breaking.
I am here.
Though there may not be hope.
And the shadows grow darker.
I am here.
When you feel like there's no where left to turn.
When you feel like the world is against you.
I am here.
When you feel like you are dying.
When you have nothing left to give.
I am here.
When you feel like the world is unforgiving.
When your pain becomes too deep.
Know that I am here.
Know that there will always be a light.
Dim and dark..
There is still light.
There will always be light.
Always.
There is always another day.
There is always something bigger going on than what you're feeling.
Though the world may seem small.
And your heart may be breaking.
I am here.
Though there may not be hope.
And the shadows grow darker.
I am here.
When you feel like there's no where left to turn.
When you feel like the world is against you.
I am here.
When you feel like you are dying.
When you have nothing left to give.
I am here.
When you feel like the world is unforgiving.
When your pain becomes too deep.
Know that I am here.
Know that there will always be a light.
Dim and dark..
There is still light.
There will always be light.
Always.
Friday, February 17, 2012
Day 61. Into the wood.
There are moments when you would like to just.
Get out.
Let go.
Loose complete control of yourself.
Where you would rather be anywhere but here.
Where the woods just seems to be much safer.
Calmer.
Sitting still becomes unbearable.
Sleep becomes a chore.
To the woods.
To the wind,
the trees,
The rustling leaves.
To the stream.
To the soft dirt ground.
It seems so much more peaceful than a room.
There are no walls,
No entries,
No exits.
The wood just is.
Lets all take a trip.
Just for a day.
To the wood.
Lets all just live in peace.
Just for a day.
Get out.
Let go.
Loose complete control of yourself.
Where you would rather be anywhere but here.
Where the woods just seems to be much safer.
Calmer.
Sitting still becomes unbearable.
Sleep becomes a chore.
To the woods.
To the wind,
the trees,
The rustling leaves.
To the stream.
To the soft dirt ground.
It seems so much more peaceful than a room.
There are no walls,
No entries,
No exits.
The wood just is.
Lets all take a trip.
Just for a day.
To the wood.
Lets all just live in peace.
Just for a day.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Day 60. Love and Mush... blah blah blah
I've always found myself to be a hopeless romantic.
For the longest time I have thought I've known love.
Tangible love, that is.
I don't know if many have thought about this, but I have thought a great deal about
Tangible love and Intangible love.
Both have their beauties.
Both have their faults.
Those who know me personally know I talk a great deal about Tangible and Intangible love.
In my head I have a clear picture of what Tangible and Intangible love is..
Let's begin--
Tangible love--
A love I want.
A love most people need.
This type of love can be between family, friends, lovers, partners, etc.
I hear tangible love, I immediately think of a husband and wife.
A wedding,
A family.
All of the silly little things most people want in their life.
LOVE.
Tangible love is something people spend their whole life searching for.
They grieve because they don't have it.
Tangible love can be mistaken for lust.
Intangible love---
I've felt this,
I've seen this.
I've lived this.
Many have and will question the existence of this.
It is unconditional.
It is never failing.
It lives forever.
Intangible love is untouchable (literally).
Intangible love is more beautiful, by far.
Intangible love is torturous, because you cannot see it, with another being.
Intangible love is complicated because it is torturous.
Godspeed <3
For the longest time I have thought I've known love.
Tangible love, that is.
I don't know if many have thought about this, but I have thought a great deal about
Tangible love and Intangible love.
Both have their beauties.
Both have their faults.
Those who know me personally know I talk a great deal about Tangible and Intangible love.
In my head I have a clear picture of what Tangible and Intangible love is..
Let's begin--
Tangible love--
A love I want.
A love most people need.
This type of love can be between family, friends, lovers, partners, etc.
I hear tangible love, I immediately think of a husband and wife.
A wedding,
A family.
All of the silly little things most people want in their life.
LOVE.
Tangible love is something people spend their whole life searching for.
They grieve because they don't have it.
Tangible love can be mistaken for lust.
Intangible love---
I've felt this,
I've seen this.
I've lived this.
Many have and will question the existence of this.
It is unconditional.
It is never failing.
It lives forever.
Intangible love is untouchable (literally).
Intangible love is more beautiful, by far.
Intangible love is torturous, because you cannot see it, with another being.
Intangible love is complicated because it is torturous.
Godspeed <3
Breathe Again-- Sara Bareilles
My Child
Read only the Italics
My Child,
I know everything about you … Psalm 139:1
I knew you even before you were conceived … Jeremiah 1:4-5
I knit you together in your mother’s womb … Psalm 139:13
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love … 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you … 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your father … Matthew 7:11
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand … James 1:17
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope … Jeremiah 29:11
For you are my treasured possession … Exodus 19:5
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you … Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart … Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes … Revelation 21:3-4
And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth … Revelation 21:3-4
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled … 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you … 1 John 4:10
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again … Romans 8:31-32
I have always been Father, and will always be Father … Ephesians 3:14-15
Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen … Luke 15:7
Love,
Your Abba Almighty God
My Child,
I know everything about you … Psalm 139:1
I knew you even before you were conceived … Jeremiah 1:4-5
I knit you together in your mother’s womb … Psalm 139:13
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love … 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you … 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your father … Matthew 7:11
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand … James 1:17
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope … Jeremiah 29:11
For you are my treasured possession … Exodus 19:5
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you … Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart … Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes … Revelation 21:3-4
And I’ll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth … Revelation 21:3-4
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled … 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you … 1 John 4:10
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again … Romans 8:31-32
I have always been Father, and will always be Father … Ephesians 3:14-15
Come home and I’ll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen … Luke 15:7
Love,
Your Abba Almighty God
Monday, February 13, 2012
Day 59. "You are made for so much more than all of this"
I stand next to the large pile.
Books, journals, bibles, notes, pictures
They fall as I stare up into the unending mass.
My mind becomes jumbled by this pile.
A blue light surrouds it.
It's so bright,
It is covered by this pile,
The shadow covers my head and my entire body.
It engulfs me.
The bright blue light covered the rest of the room,
But left me. Alone.
Like a cloud covering the sun,
I was cold.
Frustrated by the cold feeling I had.
Filled with anger by this pile covering my direct path with the blue light.
I was so frustrated, it obscured my veiw.
I wasn't alone in this cold.
His hand touched my shoulder.
It was warm, like the light.
He stared at the pile,
Just as I did.
His voice was barely audible.
"You are made for so much more than this."
He whispered pointing at the massive pile.
Words fell from the pile,
Treasured,
Sacred,
Beautiful,
His.
Words of encouragement.
As the words fell,
Holes began opening in the pile.
"You're beautiful."
He whispered again.
I began to feel warmth.
The light coming through the pile touched my face.
Then my hand.
It was warmer than you would think.
It spun around you in a goldish pink swirl.
But in front of you it was blue.
Bright blue, of a thousand suns.
"You're beautiful."
He said taking my hand into the light.
Books, journals, bibles, notes, pictures
They fall as I stare up into the unending mass.
My mind becomes jumbled by this pile.
A blue light surrouds it.
It's so bright,
It is covered by this pile,
The shadow covers my head and my entire body.
It engulfs me.
The bright blue light covered the rest of the room,
But left me. Alone.
Like a cloud covering the sun,
I was cold.
Frustrated by the cold feeling I had.
Filled with anger by this pile covering my direct path with the blue light.
I was so frustrated, it obscured my veiw.
I wasn't alone in this cold.
His hand touched my shoulder.
It was warm, like the light.
He stared at the pile,
Just as I did.
His voice was barely audible.
"You are made for so much more than this."
He whispered pointing at the massive pile.
Words fell from the pile,
Treasured,
Sacred,
Beautiful,
His.
Words of encouragement.
As the words fell,
Holes began opening in the pile.
"You're beautiful."
He whispered again.
I began to feel warmth.
The light coming through the pile touched my face.
Then my hand.
It was warmer than you would think.
It spun around you in a goldish pink swirl.
But in front of you it was blue.
Bright blue, of a thousand suns.
"You're beautiful."
He said taking my hand into the light.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Words of Blessing. 2/12/12 (For Michelle's sake)
1 John 3:18 My Children, our love should not be just words and talk; it must be true love, which shows itself in action.
"Lord give me courage to go out into the world to be a witness of your life by sharing your story and my own story. I pray for the infilling of the Holy Spirit to guide me and fill me with courage to reach out to others by praying for them and offering forgiveness and love."
Michelle,
Step out, for I am with you. There is a great need to strengthen the faith of my people and my Church. I ask you to move out and do something- yes, action that involves reaching out in faith. I will open new doors, and you are to open old doors and old friends. Do my work now. make my words real and take them out. Start tomorrow. Keep a journal with you so you remember our talks and what you are doing. Be glad you have a paper journal and not a heavy stone. Remember?
I want to be real in your life. I want to be your Lord, savior, and hope in all things. Continue to let go and turn to me. I have sent you friends of caring and witnesses of faith at this time. Be open. Listen and trust. I am preparing you for a mission and ministry that needs you and your gift of welcoming and believing in others. Bless you!
When you take someones hands and pray in my name, amazing things happen--Healing, love, hope, peace, joy, blessings, guidance, and courage to share my love, words, and reality in the world. The word is shared and love is made real. A bond is made in and through my name. It is a bond of friendship that is grounded in faith. Share my words with others or the voice becomes silent.
An invitation will be there for you. Through prayer, honesty, looking at both sides and at the gifts needed, seeing where you are truly called to step out, and trust, you will know what to do. Ask FOUR faithful and open people from within and outside the situation to pray with you and for you. The way will be clear-- a new beginning. Be anchored in prayer.
Isaiah 61:1
John 13:34-35
2 Corinthians 8:6-7
1 Peter 4:10-11
EXPLANATION---
This is called Words of Blessing. My youth group friend and a few teens from youth group are doing this each Wednesday, we started it today. And they are weekly notes or things God is saying directly to you. If you would like to see the website click here. I recommend doing it with a group no greater than 6. But do it with a group.
This thing is crazy. A lady whose son died, now follows God, and writes these words spoken to her. At the moment this woman is very ill, her name is Christina, lease pray she gets better soon.
What I had written here are words that I was given from a group of words, or passages, or sayings. Whatever you'd like to call them. But I feel as though these words were truly spoken for me. If you don't want to read anymore of these I am totally fine with that. Feel free to just skip through these. But I am posting these for my own memory, because the sheets I have, I will lose, so I will write these.
SO if you don't want to read feel free to skip over... BUT I really recommend getting a group together and starting these.
Godspeed <3
"Lord give me courage to go out into the world to be a witness of your life by sharing your story and my own story. I pray for the infilling of the Holy Spirit to guide me and fill me with courage to reach out to others by praying for them and offering forgiveness and love."
Michelle,
Step out, for I am with you. There is a great need to strengthen the faith of my people and my Church. I ask you to move out and do something- yes, action that involves reaching out in faith. I will open new doors, and you are to open old doors and old friends. Do my work now. make my words real and take them out. Start tomorrow. Keep a journal with you so you remember our talks and what you are doing. Be glad you have a paper journal and not a heavy stone. Remember?
I want to be real in your life. I want to be your Lord, savior, and hope in all things. Continue to let go and turn to me. I have sent you friends of caring and witnesses of faith at this time. Be open. Listen and trust. I am preparing you for a mission and ministry that needs you and your gift of welcoming and believing in others. Bless you!
When you take someones hands and pray in my name, amazing things happen--Healing, love, hope, peace, joy, blessings, guidance, and courage to share my love, words, and reality in the world. The word is shared and love is made real. A bond is made in and through my name. It is a bond of friendship that is grounded in faith. Share my words with others or the voice becomes silent.
An invitation will be there for you. Through prayer, honesty, looking at both sides and at the gifts needed, seeing where you are truly called to step out, and trust, you will know what to do. Ask FOUR faithful and open people from within and outside the situation to pray with you and for you. The way will be clear-- a new beginning. Be anchored in prayer.
Isaiah 61:1
John 13:34-35
2 Corinthians 8:6-7
1 Peter 4:10-11
EXPLANATION---
This is called Words of Blessing. My youth group friend and a few teens from youth group are doing this each Wednesday, we started it today. And they are weekly notes or things God is saying directly to you. If you would like to see the website click here. I recommend doing it with a group no greater than 6. But do it with a group.
This thing is crazy. A lady whose son died, now follows God, and writes these words spoken to her. At the moment this woman is very ill, her name is Christina, lease pray she gets better soon.
What I had written here are words that I was given from a group of words, or passages, or sayings. Whatever you'd like to call them. But I feel as though these words were truly spoken for me. If you don't want to read anymore of these I am totally fine with that. Feel free to just skip through these. But I am posting these for my own memory, because the sheets I have, I will lose, so I will write these.
SO if you don't want to read feel free to skip over... BUT I really recommend getting a group together and starting these.
Godspeed <3
Day 58. My LOUD life update.
There are things that happen for a reason....
SO many people say this, but do we really know what it means?
I sure don't....
Well lets see...
I was unable to go to the discernment retreat in Ann Arbor, MI this weekend due to weather conditions and my alarm not going off at the correct time. All Saturday I spent my time being mad at God.. We played the question game...
Why didn't my alarm go off this morning?!
Is this a sign God??
What does this mean?
Was this supposed to happen?
WHERE ARE YOU LEADING ME GOD?!
WHY THE HECK AM I NOT ABLE TO GO ON THIS RETREAT GOD?!
After the stage of questioning, I became frustrated with myself seeing that my alarm was only set for MONDAY - FRIDAY, NO WEEKEND ALARM
silly me....
So, being the stubborn human being that I am, I stayed angry, at both myself and at God. Because I am stubborn.
Now that I'm done with that rant....
I recently heard a song from the wonderful MercyMe called Beautiful.
Which gave me the inspiration for a youth group topic.
I've decided I want to share my testimony to these teens.
These teens that only know one side of me.
So, Testimony underway...
This summer....
My main focus in life...
Well. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING!
(This is a very loud post...)
But at the moment I have no idea what I am doing this summer, I feel a very strong pull towards a few places but my main focus is where God wants me. I want so badly to spread Gods word this summer. I want to share my faith with the people around me. But more than anything I want to do what God wants me to do..
Well yes this is my life at the current moment...
SO many people say this, but do we really know what it means?
I sure don't....
Well lets see...
I was unable to go to the discernment retreat in Ann Arbor, MI this weekend due to weather conditions and my alarm not going off at the correct time. All Saturday I spent my time being mad at God.. We played the question game...
Why didn't my alarm go off this morning?!
Is this a sign God??
What does this mean?
Was this supposed to happen?
WHERE ARE YOU LEADING ME GOD?!
WHY THE HECK AM I NOT ABLE TO GO ON THIS RETREAT GOD?!
After the stage of questioning, I became frustrated with myself seeing that my alarm was only set for MONDAY - FRIDAY, NO WEEKEND ALARM
silly me....
So, being the stubborn human being that I am, I stayed angry, at both myself and at God. Because I am stubborn.
Now that I'm done with that rant....
I recently heard a song from the wonderful MercyMe called Beautiful.
Which gave me the inspiration for a youth group topic.
I've decided I want to share my testimony to these teens.
These teens that only know one side of me.
So, Testimony underway...
This summer....
My main focus in life...
Well. I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING!
(This is a very loud post...)
But at the moment I have no idea what I am doing this summer, I feel a very strong pull towards a few places but my main focus is where God wants me. I want so badly to spread Gods word this summer. I want to share my faith with the people around me. But more than anything I want to do what God wants me to do..
Well yes this is my life at the current moment...
Beautiful-- MercyMe.
Godspeed<3
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Day 57. What I Really Want to Say..
What I really want to say...
Is what the SUN would say to the SKY
For giving it a place to come ALIVE
~Steven Curtis Chapman
Godspeed<3
Is what the SUN would say to the SKY
For giving it a place to come ALIVE
~Steven Curtis Chapman
Sunday, February 5, 2012
Day 56. I Thank God for Tears.
I thank God for tears.
I thank Him for the ability to express ourselves without words.
But with feeling.
With music,
With a look.
With a way your voice sounds.
With the way your heart beats.
With the way your body reacts to a situation.
I would be so lost without those ways to express myself.
People say I write beautifully,
To that I say thank you, so much.
But if you could read the way I read when I write my words.
*Sigh*
That is why I love music,
Spoken Poetry,
Plays,
Theatre.
The ability to express yourself in a way,
without it actually being you.
Acting.
I am no actress.
But I thank God for the people that are.
The art of acting is beautiful,
Inspiring.
The art of acting can go into so many effects though.
It can be brought into song.
Modeling,
Poetry.
Etc.
I thank God for letting us express ourselves with more than just words.
Without facial expressions,
Voice changes,
Body Language.
Feeling.
I would not be able to tell the world my heart...
Godspeed <3
I thank Him for the ability to express ourselves without words.
But with feeling.
With music,
With a look.
With a way your voice sounds.
With the way your heart beats.
With the way your body reacts to a situation.
I would be so lost without those ways to express myself.
People say I write beautifully,
To that I say thank you, so much.
But if you could read the way I read when I write my words.
*Sigh*
That is why I love music,
Spoken Poetry,
Plays,
Theatre.
The ability to express yourself in a way,
without it actually being you.
Acting.
I am no actress.
But I thank God for the people that are.
The art of acting is beautiful,
Inspiring.
The art of acting can go into so many effects though.
It can be brought into song.
Modeling,
Poetry.
Etc.
I thank God for letting us express ourselves with more than just words.
Without facial expressions,
Voice changes,
Body Language.
Feeling.
I would not be able to tell the world my heart...
Godspeed <3
Every Breath--
Boyce Avenue
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