Pretty much explains me at the present moment.
If you didn't know, which most people don't-- but at this present moment God wants me to start considering religious life.
A nun with a guitar. yep. props to John Devine for buying the shirts. They are super cool.
But back to the point, that I really want to make in this blog, part of me wants to become a nun with a guitar. The other part of me wants to get married and have a family. This is my struggle right now.
Now you might be asking yourself, " Self, how is this a struggle?!"
Well I'm glad you asked!!!
It's a struggle because my whole life I've wanted to be a mom. My whole life I've been dreaming of love. My whole life I knew I was going to have a family, and be a teacher, and have a bigillion little kids all around me all the time.
Then BOOM! Curve ball.
"Become fully mine." He says. "Forever."
The ring on my left hand, at the moment, is Gods. That itself is a struggle, a constant reminder, which sometimes I may not want.
I've said a few times that I'm engaged to Christ, weird and possibly wrong to say, but for the moment true. I love Christ. So much.
And im terrified for where-ever He takes me, because I know it's His will.
Well this is enough for today. I leave you with this song.
Godspeed <3
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