Day 31. Somethings Gotta Change.

1. I have amazing friends. This can be totally cheesy, but it's entirely true. The people who I call friends are probably the coolest people in the world.

I needed to say that. Because you need to know you're amazing and totally awesome, and I am so thankful to have you in my life.

To the real point of this blog...

My Consecration is in 5 days... I am now changing is to was..

Let me explain,
I was in adoration tonight, I was invited by one of my friends. A simple text telling me Jesus is going to be there, therefore it is going to be amazing... Changed my night.

I got to adoration in a bit of a flustered mess. Mostly because my house has turned into mass chaos. But that is beside the point.
I have been at the realization that I am majorly behind on my readings and prayings of my consecration. So, tonight, I tried to catch up. Failing miserably of course.
I look up at the beautiful statue of the Blessed Virgin.
Then to the Monstrance.
I'm not ready.
Why am I doing this?
Why am I forcing this?
Why am I trying so hard to get this done...Like a homework assignment?
I started to cry.
I had made the decision to wait, because I am not fully here, spiritually that is.
I have been told to wait.
I love Mary and Jesus too much to force this.

Something has to change in me before I can do this for real.
Godspeed <3

Something's Gotta Change-- Josh Wilson