Day 36.

Torture.
The chains that have restrained me are starting to leave marks.
Scars.
he's blinded me.
I am surrounded.

his words haunt me.
I haven't even shown you my worst.
I'm just getting started.
his words have surrounded everything I know to be real.
he's shown me scenarios of my life.
Showing me what I could be.
What I could have.

I want none of it.
Go away.
My mouth becomes dry.
I know what he's capable of.
he laughs removing the darkness from my eyes.
Pardon?
his polite manner makes me want to vomit.

I'm not afraid of you.
I can't look him in the face.
I keep His words in my head.
You are so strong.
I am not afraid of you.
I say again, glaring into his piercing blue eyes.
his wicked smile returns.

Don't lose eye contact.
he walks over to me.
I shake with fear repeating His words in my head again.
You are strong,
Brave.
I am with you in the silence.
He is here now.

The only sound was the click of his shoes as he moves for the kill.
I close my eyes and picture the light.
he forces my eyes open.
Staring unsympathetically into his now red eyes.
his grotesque smile was larger than ever.

I try to keep Him in my mind.
I pray as he holds my face.
everything burns.

Hail Mary full of grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed are You Among women,
And blessed is the fruit of Your womb,
Holy Mary, Mother of God.
Pray for us sinners,
Now and at the our of our death
Amen.

The world turned black.