Day 33. I Am Here. I See You...

His voice shined through the darkness.
Alittle glimpse of hope once more.

Darkness.
he blocked it once more.
No.
he hissed.
The hatred in his voice was tangible.
No. Do not do this now.
his eyes burned into my cheek.

My eyes closed tight.
It will pass. This will be over. Soon.
I think to the weeks ahead.
To the life ahead of me.

he laughs again.
You, girl, you have no clue.
his laugh was horrific.
As if it mocked my very existance.
his words wrapped tightly around my head.
Get those thoughts out of your head, girl.
The words squeezed tightly around my body.
Binding me.

Words binding me.
his words.
his doubtful, hate-filled words.
Leaving  invisible chains around my body.

I try to make him leave.
Hail Mary full of gr-
My mouth bound. Filled with words of doubt.

The hint of light returns for a second.
I am here Cherub. I see you.
He whispers in my ear. I wiggle in the invisible chains.
Wanting more than anything to break free and run to the light.

he grabs hold of me.
Sweety, stay.
his whisper is like venom in my ears.
his touch burns.
It makes me tense.

I keep that thought in my mind, as he holds me tight.
I keep my eyes closed remembering that shimmer of light.
I keep His words in my mind.
I am here, Cherub. I see you.

Josh Groban You are loved.

Godspeed <3