Day 51. I will still be me.

"It should never be seen as a crutch."

It is a holy place.
But your heart should not reside there.
Your faith shouldn't be determined by this simple place.

I have realized that I have struggled a lot with that for the last few weeks.

Questioning what I would do if I don't get to go back to those holy grounds.
What will my faith be like?
What will I turn into?

Silly little me.
My faith cannot be determined on a place.
Though this place is holy.
Though this place is where my faith began.
It will not end there.
I have written about how the decision is out of my hands.
I have written about Gods will.
I have written about struggles.
About the past.
About the future.
But I cannot dwell on those things.
The present.
That is what I need to dwell in.
That is what I need to keep my mind in.

My faith will not change if I don't go back to the lovely, friendly environment.
I will not change if I do not get to walk on the dirt trails.
I will still be Michelle.
I will still be deeply in love with God.
I will still be willing to do anything for the youth.
I will still be me.

I need to remember this as my journey continues.

I will still be me.
No matter what happens....


I will still be me.

Godspeed<3

Lincoln Brewster-- Surrender