Day 53. Fear Factor

I've been writing a lot in the past few days.
About nothing, about everything.
About my fears mostly.

If I could list off what I am scared of I feel as though my list would go on forever.
But there are 4 things that I am truly afraid of. (no particular order)

1. My summer job.
2. Losing those I love most.
3. Never getting married. (cheesy...)
4. Not being successful, or not doing something I love with my life.

Fears are common, natural even.

There are times where I wish I could live life without fear.
Where I could just go DO something without being afraid of making a fool of myself.
Where I could be FREE.

Then there are times where I am happy I am self concious, fearful.
It makes me me.

I don't think that fear, or the sensation of being afraid of things will ever leave.

There is one thing I don't want to be afraid of.--- my future.

What God has in store for my future.
And I know I shouldn't be afraid of God's plan.. I should be excited.
I have been hearing Jeremiah 29:11-13 a lot lately.

"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. "

So that's what I am trying to do,
It will take time.
As most things do.
God has plans for me.
And my life.

Godspeed <3

Meredith Andrews- In Your Arms