It seems so strange the path I've been chosen to take. Just to think that about year ago I was accepting a dream "job". Gosh, it's just crazy to think that this will be the first time in... eight years that I won't be making the trek to Reedsburg, Wisconsin to see the wonders of a summer camp that built me into the person I am today.
It's absolutely crazy how God's plan works. There have been many an obstacle I needed to conquer to bring me to the point in my life I am at today. To think that I have been so incredibly blessed by those obstacles and by the amazing times I've had this past year.
Let me just say this past year has been quite different. I started off the year in a dark place. A very dark place. Then got the biggest opportunity in a long time; spent three months in paradise- which wasn't entirely paradise, but a great big life lesson, filled with a billion and one moments where I am in absolute paradise.
Soon after I came home from "paradise" I spent a semester without clue on what I was doing. I had next to nothing to go after. No goals. No reason to do anything. I was at again another low point. I knew it. My family knew it. If you read my writing you probably knew it too...
I am not proud of those times in my life. I don't enjoy feeling so low. When I feel that low, a silly little facade comes out. Let me explain, I have a reputation of being the happy-go-lucky, optimistic, yada yada yada. Of course I enjoy being optimistic, because makes others happy and feel loved.
Even though I enjoy making people happy and feel like they're loved, the facade was something I don't like. Why? The facade is not- I repeat NOT- me. I do not enjoy the mask. I do not enjoy not dealing with my other emotions. I do not enjoy having people think it's weird that I get sad. It makes me laugh when people think it's weird when I have "stuff".
What I'm trying to say is that, if I was still on my path to working at my "paradise dream job". I would still have to keep up this silly little facade. I would still probably be stuck in my little rut. Which wouldn't be very fun.
Though I am not going back to the place I called home for so long. I know I'm where I am right now for a reason. This path I've been lead to has been so great. At this very moment I feel incredibly blessed. I have not felt so blessed in such a long time. Right now, I feel like I am right where I am supposed to be, with the people I am supposed to be sharing my experiences with. And I will continue to be thankful for all I have and who I am with.
Thank you for reading.
Godspeed <3
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