I Wonder...

I wonder if you would still want to be around me when I get into one of my cycles.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me when I yell.

When I scream with anger.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me when I am sad, crying, unable to stop.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me when I put on my facade.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you could read my thoughts.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you saw my past... all of it

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how scary I thought everything was.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how anxious I got about time.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how anxious I got all the time.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how I really thought of myself.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you how my brain worked .

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you saw me as I slept.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you saw me two months ago.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you saw my scars.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if I told you the stories on how I got each one of them.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how socially awkward I am.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how not social I actually am.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew that making decisions gives me an immense amount of anxiety.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you knew how much I am like my mother.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you saw how my father and I interacted.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me when you finally hear me swear with anger.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me when you finally hear me swear with sadness.

I wonder if you would still want to be around me if you saw me when I'm not around you.