LIVING

Alive.
We are Alive.
We seem to take this sentence for granted.
I take this sentence for granted.


I think there is a difference from being alive and living.


ALIVE adj: To have life; living; existing; not dead or lifeless.

LIVING adj: in actual existence or use; active or thriving; vigorous.

 

burning or glowing, as a coal.

flowing freely, as water.

A giant difference.
I have had many a thought about those two words.
Alive and Living. 

For the longest time and still today, when I know that I am finally living and not just existing I would like  to get a tattoo that says LIVING.

Like I said, I have taken the word Alive for granted. I don't just want to be existing. I don't want to be something that is not lifeless. I am growing to understand that more and more. Through my anxieties and fears about life I have been afraid to go out and LIVE. I have been afraid to step out of my comfort zone and do something crazy and different. Or just something I wouldn't normally do.

It's funny because I can feel my soul wanting nothing to break free from my anxieties and my comfort zone. I am learning that I need to set my soul free. I need to do things, I need to be social. I need to jump out of that comfort zone with force and LIVE.

I need to learn to sing louder.
I need to learn to dance like... like I don't care what others think.
I need to learn that I will be wrong and that is something I shouldn't be afraid of.
I need to learn that where I am now is NOT where I will be forever. That I will be able to break free and be with those that I love and that love me without question or resistance from others.
I need to learn that it's more than okay to be crazy and different. It will never be a bad thing to be different.
I need to learn that LIVING is not just something that you do everyday. It is not breathing. It is not waking up in the morning and going with the flow of life.
LIVING is waking up with a purpose.
LIVING is going through every day like it is your last.
LIVING is doing something new everyday.


I want to not just be alive but be LIVING.


Godspeed <3

What Are You Waiting For- Paradise Fears.