Where I feel like I'm going to lose everything close to me.
It's absolutely terrifying.
I can feel my heart beat faster when I start to get this way.
My face turns to near stone- expressionless.
My hands get all jumpy like I've had too much coffee or something...
This feeling usually happens when I am stuck in my mind.
When I am frustrated.
When I can't seem to control anything going on in my life.
It seems to be happening more and more lately.
But I'm the type of person who won't show it.
Which sucks more, because it makes me isolated.
I know, I do this to myself.
I make myself this way and it sucks.
A lot.
It's something that I'm working on.
Something that I know I want to fix.
It's just always easier said than done.
I am hoping I can fix it.
This part of myself.
Become more confident in myself.
Tell myself that I will not lose everything.
And even though I think it's silly and stupid, it's not.
It's just something I need to overcome.
If you ever have moments like this know this,
You are not alone.
I am here with you.
Beauty from Pain-Superchick
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