When I am Distant

When I am distant it's not because I don't want you around.
It's not because I don't like you.
Or because I think you're weird.

When I am distant it is not because I do not care about you.
It's not because I want you to go away.
Or because I want to be alone.

When I am distant it's because I am afraid.
It's because I am afraid it's all just words.
I am afraid of what I may lose.

When I am distant it's because I am terrified.
Terrified of these things I don't understand.
Terrified everything is a lie.

When I am distant know it's not your fault.
Know that I am not doing this to hurt you.
Know that it's not my intention.

When I am distant understand I am scared. 
I am scared of opening up my heart.
Scared of letting my walls down.

When I am distant and begin to ask questions that hurt,
I apologize.
I ask questions because I want to know your intentions.
I want to know where you really stand.

When I am distant it's not because I don't love you.
It's not because I don't care.
It's not because I want to hurt you.

When I am distant it is because I am scared, terrified. and afraid.