Uncharted Territory

I've found that the sadness that I had felt before is now a rarity.

The emptiness has become surprisingly full.

Honestly, I can say this change is undoubtedly terrifying.

The change in my responsiveness to life is something I am not used to.

Quite eerie actually.

Like at the drop of a hat everything could be turned back around.

The full feeling I have now can quickly become empty once more.

I am not sure if I would be phased by it.

There was something comforting about the emptiness.

It was the high probability of never getting hurt.

I was safe from the feelings that leave people too quickly.

I was sheltered from those feelings that leave abruptly.

I am venturing into uncharted territory. 

I am excited about that.

It is a much needed adjustment in my purposely sheltered life.

I am incredibly anxious charting into these new waters of emotions.

I am apprehensive to the new waters.

I want to hastily drift far, far away from these new feelings and go back to the emptiness.

As ill-minded as that is,

It is what I know.

It is all that I know.

So, as I venture deep into these new uncharted terrain,

I will always hear the far off sounds of emptiness,

Craving my return...