Uncontrollable

It's been quite a long time since I've felt like this...

Uncontrollable.

I'm in the beginning of my episode.

I am scared.

I am lost.

I am hurting.

I hate this disease more than anything in the world.

I wish my brain was normal.

I wish I was normal.

I feel so incredibly uncontrollable.

I need to stop feeling like this.

I need to fix myself.

I need to do something because I am going to have a freak out soon.

And that is never good.

I need to stop feeling uncontrollable.

I need to take control of the situation.

Breathe...

Breathe...

Breathe.